ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

sick

i want these miu miu platforms more than anything ever

cornbread

holy crap i am sick. it's been 5 days and it's not going away. my voice sounds like a wheezy old man's and i get filled with rage at random times because i don't have any way to get my energy out. BUT it's almost spring and i can smell it, shaking off the residue of seasonal depression. i love this time of year.

what

sometimes i am a baby

crapola

i don't want this blog to be the laurie complains at ridiculous hours of the night forum but that's what it's becoming so fuck off. this is why i keep my journals hidden away in secret places and never look at them again... i am trying to learn what HP wants for me and grow towards that, it is a miracle that i can even form sentences using these kinds of words today, much less actually trust & rely.

i feel like i've somehow skipped the 4th dimension entirely and been rocketed into bizarreoworld today. i've been having these crazy dreams about people i know and i wake up and feel differently about the them than i did when i went to bed. it's driving me crazy. i've always had trouble distinguishing between dreams and memories of actual experiences, but lately walking around in the world has been a constant case of deja vu. certain dreams trigger memories of other dreams stored way back in my brain from months/years ago and there seems to be this little world existing & functioning autonomously in my head where everything connects. i can take trains from one dream town to the next. i am sort of amazed at the images my brain can produce with little provocation and the affect these have on my waking life.

stain my deck

you are so inappropriate. acting better than i want to. words can fumble for my buttons and trip on her shoelaces when she gets on her knees. feel like a human wrecking ball, i need sleep but got too many feelins', there is nothing i can say that would make you think i am cool and someone you would like to get to know. NOT MY JURY

hamburgers and hot dogs too

the idea is to meet force with equal force, always. i've decided to become a grown-up. grown-ups do not eat crackers in bed at 5 AM while watching cartoons instead of waking up early and looking for work. FUCK.